I’m different. I always have been, and I’m starting to believe I’ll always be…different.
This week’s chapters from The Gospel of Yes by Mike Glenn came after a lengthy conversation with my husband. I don’t recall the source of my epiphany but it was like I had a trip down memory lane.
I saw flashes of my childhood. I saw myself in grade school. I saw myself within my surroundings whether with my family or my faith family.
I’ve always been an oddball but not weird.
A nerd but kind of cool. (smile)
A thinker but a creative.
How is that?
I have no idea how these polarizing existences can reside in one body but they do. For so long I wanted to change it. I wanted to be “normal”. But not like a copy-cat or a follower. I merely wanted to NOT stick out.
Lord, is that possible? That me, Dana, not stick out.
** My inner me does an about-face and slumps to the couch. She’s not feeling this response at all. **
“I was never supposed to fit.”
– Mike Glenn p. 187
What about you? Have you tried to live in a one-size-fits-all life? How’s it working out for you?
Do you like it? Do you feel fulfilled? Do you believe you’re living your “yes”?
“I was supposed to understand who I was in Christ
and express my uniqueness as a blessing from Christ
through which he would reveal himself to his church
and the world.” – Mike Glenn p. 187
We are nearing the end of this book and it came at a perfect time. I sat and re-read this thought more than once. Pastor Mike is speaking my heart.
You see, even as you read this post I have to address my uniqueness. I am a writer and a speaker. My heart aches to communicate thoughts to a point where I can hardly write a sentence. Which causes my mind to nearly blow a fuse when I struggle to find a place to start.
Slowly the starting space is revealing itself, however, I have to release my one-size-fits-all mentality. Because quite frankly…it doesn’t fit. And quite honestly, I don’t want it to.
I love my boisterous social butterfly moments sheltering the emotionally exhausted introvert I protect.
I love the suspense detective I unlock as I write who tag-teams with the old lady inside me itching to crochet a shawl.
I love my take charge girls run the world I am woman hear me roar spirit. And yet I am mighty comfortable as I wipe the tears from my cheek as I realize my baby is turning 12.
No…I would not change any of me at this point, at least not these parts.
“My uniqueness reveals something of Christ
that no one else does.” – Mike Glenn p. 187
What about you…
Question: Do you embrace your uniqueness? If so, how?